Posted by nibor at 2:03pm Mar 5 '10I get to the dr's early as i was taught to do just out of human curtoucy and i sat. I talked with a wonderful couple the man of which was in a wheel chair but it never came up in conversation , I never felt the need for it to. He was funny they told me about there son who has several mental issues it sounded like they were talking about Anubis only this boy is 11.
The got called back and I realised some where in the line of talking they had said that there appointment was 10:15 mine was 10:00. I looked at the clock it said 11:00.
I Sat for a moment thinking, trying to get up the courage to say some thing I mean I had shit I could be doing. I got up went to the counter and softly spoke up " excuse me I know it probably will not help any thing but my appointment was scedualed for an hour ago. She made a phone call and said I was next on the list.
I sat there and made faces at this little asian baby that made him smile and giggle. i figured heck why be miserable.
Two more people got called back, I gritted my teeth and thought, next in line my ass. Then I heard my name I thought oh yeah this will finally be over with soon. This appointment being the one to get my IUD replaced.
The nurse looks at me after takeing me in to the room and says "so you're here to have your IUD taken out." "and replaced" I said. "Oh, didn't some body call you? We don't have any right now." "O.K. Well when do you think you will be able to get them in." "Well see also we just found out today that your insurance no longer covers IUDs"
I sat there mouth agape and honestly I do not know how I did not cry at that moment. Some of you may not have realised what the past 8 years have been like for me, some of you do. Basically I suffered a monthly hormonal hell, I would lash out verbally at every one and evvery thing including my kids. Now due to no longer haveing a period (thanks to my IUD) and my medications I am mostly leveled out.
Dr Khan tried to talk me in to all of these other hormonal options and the main reason mirena worked for me is because so little of the hormone reaches the blood stream.
I sat there as Dr Khan tried to see what needed to be done and how much time I had and stuff and I almost cried, does that sound silly, I almost cried for one because I might have to deal with the pain of having a period but I may also have to deal with the pain of my issues coming back.
They told me my insurance is going through changes and may change things in the next month or two. making hand quotations at may.
I swallowed really hard I asked the question I have been terrified to ask for years. Can I please get a hysterectomy. I was told no. I tried to explain my case that all of my problems mentally are hormone related if they just yank it all out then maybe in a few years I would be good. I don't need it any more.
I was told no. I'm sitting here holding back tears because I was willing to let them rip out my womanhood, and proform surgery which I am terrified of to make my self as ok as this tiny piece of rubbery stuff.
The cost for me to personally pay for an IUD $750. I can't do that.
The got called back and I realised some where in the line of talking they had said that there appointment was 10:15 mine was 10:00. I looked at the clock it said 11:00.
I Sat for a moment thinking, trying to get up the courage to say some thing I mean I had shit I could be doing. I got up went to the counter and softly spoke up " excuse me I know it probably will not help any thing but my appointment was scedualed for an hour ago. She made a phone call and said I was next on the list.
I sat there and made faces at this little asian baby that made him smile and giggle. i figured heck why be miserable.
Two more people got called back, I gritted my teeth and thought, next in line my ass. Then I heard my name I thought oh yeah this will finally be over with soon. This appointment being the one to get my IUD replaced.
The nurse looks at me after takeing me in to the room and says "so you're here to have your IUD taken out." "and replaced" I said. "Oh, didn't some body call you? We don't have any right now." "O.K. Well when do you think you will be able to get them in." "Well see also we just found out today that your insurance no longer covers IUDs"
I sat there mouth agape and honestly I do not know how I did not cry at that moment. Some of you may not have realised what the past 8 years have been like for me, some of you do. Basically I suffered a monthly hormonal hell, I would lash out verbally at every one and evvery thing including my kids. Now due to no longer haveing a period (thanks to my IUD) and my medications I am mostly leveled out.
Dr Khan tried to talk me in to all of these other hormonal options and the main reason mirena worked for me is because so little of the hormone reaches the blood stream.
I sat there as Dr Khan tried to see what needed to be done and how much time I had and stuff and I almost cried, does that sound silly, I almost cried for one because I might have to deal with the pain of having a period but I may also have to deal with the pain of my issues coming back.
They told me my insurance is going through changes and may change things in the next month or two. making hand quotations at may.
I swallowed really hard I asked the question I have been terrified to ask for years. Can I please get a hysterectomy. I was told no. I tried to explain my case that all of my problems mentally are hormone related if they just yank it all out then maybe in a few years I would be good. I don't need it any more.
I was told no. I'm sitting here holding back tears because I was willing to let them rip out my womanhood, and proform surgery which I am terrified of to make my self as ok as this tiny piece of rubbery stuff.
The cost for me to personally pay for an IUD $750. I can't do that.