Posted by Essie at 7:09pm Jun 6 '05I'm 5'1 and 109 pounds. I wear a size 4 to 6 and consider myself decent looking. I carry a little extra weight around my middle, but underneath my pudge is muscle. It wouldn't hurt me to exercise a little more, but I certainly don't think I'm overweight.
I held those beliefs until I went to the pool for the first time this summer. I am the fattest girl there. Every girl under the age of 28 has a completely flat stomach (no muscles, just completely flat) and you can see their hip bones. Their thighs are thin and firm and no jiggle to be seen on any of them. There were 4 girls that had curves out of the 3 dozen, and those were only because they do cross country and track, so they have really muscular legs.
Now I feel absolutely huge. How on earth am I supposed to determine if I'm a healthy weight or not when there are all these thin, beautiful girls around? They look like fashion models! I don't want to be tiny, I'd just like to not be the fattest girl there. I know because I'm short, I'll never be able to carry any extra weight without looking a little dumpy, but I'm definitely going to have to drop a little to not worry myself to death.
The question is, how far is too far? How much is too much to lose? I don't want to be a weight fanatic. I've never cared about keeping up appearances for appearance's sake. Only for my own health and peace of mind. The only way for me to get rid of my extra pudge would be to eat less and do more cardio, because I have a good muscle base. I just eat too much and sit around too often.
I've never been the fat kid, and refuse to start now. I'm nipping it in the bud. Any advice on what my goal should be, ya'll? I need a number (be it inches or pounds) to aim for, or I'll never make any progress.
I held those beliefs until I went to the pool for the first time this summer. I am the fattest girl there. Every girl under the age of 28 has a completely flat stomach (no muscles, just completely flat) and you can see their hip bones. Their thighs are thin and firm and no jiggle to be seen on any of them. There were 4 girls that had curves out of the 3 dozen, and those were only because they do cross country and track, so they have really muscular legs.
Now I feel absolutely huge. How on earth am I supposed to determine if I'm a healthy weight or not when there are all these thin, beautiful girls around? They look like fashion models! I don't want to be tiny, I'd just like to not be the fattest girl there. I know because I'm short, I'll never be able to carry any extra weight without looking a little dumpy, but I'm definitely going to have to drop a little to not worry myself to death.
The question is, how far is too far? How much is too much to lose? I don't want to be a weight fanatic. I've never cared about keeping up appearances for appearance's sake. Only for my own health and peace of mind. The only way for me to get rid of my extra pudge would be to eat less and do more cardio, because I have a good muscle base. I just eat too much and sit around too often.
I've never been the fat kid, and refuse to start now. I'm nipping it in the bud. Any advice on what my goal should be, ya'll? I need a number (be it inches or pounds) to aim for, or I'll never make any progress.